sometimes the truth hurts

"the overwhelming desire for profit. it's asounding. ignore the environment. ignore human rights. it was the illogicality of it that i couldn't get my head around."
-isabel losada, a beginner's guide to changing the world

i am so infuriated, ashamed, sad, enraged, tearful, despondent about this race we call humans. i am reading the above mentioned text, and i don't know if i can take the truth and reality of this world...it is so sad to see the neglect, the greediness, the lack of compassion on the parts of our brothers and sisters that inhabit this planet with us. changing this world seems so out of my reach, so unattainable, but lord please break me so that my heart aches as yours does towards your lovelys'.....i so long for people to love each other, to see each other as equals, to rage at the injustices that plague mankind. lord, give me strength.

sNOW! gLORIOUS sNOW!

it was snowing when i woke up this morning at 7 am and it hasn't stopped and it is now past 7 pm, that is over 12 hours of snow. . .it is simply marvelous. . .more than two feet of snow has dropped in the past 12 hours. . .tomorrow is fitting to be a good day.

Ephesians 5:11-17

11-16Don't waste your time on useless work, mere busywork, the barren pursuits of darkness. Expose these things for the sham they are. It's a scandal when people waste their lives on things they must do in the darkness where no one will see. Rip the cover off those frauds and see how attractive they look in the light of Christ.

Wake up from your sleep,
Climb out of your coffins;
Christ will show you the light!
So watch your step. Use your head. Make the most of every chance you get. These are desperate times!

17Don't live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants.

-tHE mESSAGE

Danse Russe

if i when my wife is sleeping
and the baby and kathleen
are sleeping
and the sun is a flame white-disc
in silken mists
above shining trees,-
if i in my north room
dance naked, grotesquely
before my mirror
waving my shirt round my head
and singing softly to myself:
"i am lonely, lonely.
i was born to be lonely,
i am best so!"
if i admire my arms, my face,
my shoulders, flanks, buttocks
against the yellow drawn shades,-

who shall say i am not
the happy genuis of my household?

-william carlos williams

Me Either

I am not young enough to know everything.
- Oscar Wilde

ok ladies you can choose to love me now

notice how i said 'choose to love me' and not 'fall in love with me' because i believe that love is a choice, and we don't fall in love, we choose to love. . .so let the choosing to love begin. . .because i, aaron klein, just wrote a song. that's right i am a song writer. ha, i am so gitty with joy that i am dancing. . .with no one watching of course.

What's that white stuff

IT'S SNOWING!!!!! PRAISE BE TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER!!!!

i love the snow
when it falls down
making everything
white and pure
catching the joy
on my tongue
as i stand
in the cold
warmed by the
fire raging
in my soul
stirred by
such a gift

ode to my faceless love

are you out there my love?
my heart speaks as though,
but my head pounds as not.
and since i don't speak heart,
but do head,
the latter seems
to dominate the former.
our lives have yet to intersect,
or at least,
i was early, or
you are late,
or our times got jumbled,
our dates mismatched.


i miss you my love
the air seems colder
without your touch,
the colors a little greyer
without you here.
i dreamed last night
and when i woke,
i swore i could feel your warmth.
but when i reached for you,
all i felt was your absence.
please, don't be long my love,
for soon i will be gone,
once again dust.

cycled

imagine circular time...
life already lived
several times over.
every word spoke,
breathe breathed,
thought thunk.
doomed to be repeated
for eternity.

i hate computers

i know this is ironic or hypocritical, but i F@#$ING HATE computers. they are a plague upon the human race, a disease of mankind. i am so frustrated right now that i want to break things and cry and curse and scream. i can't remember the last time i was filled with such rage.

i may be losing my mind

it is hard to exist in a world of fragmentation that seems to conform to a normalcy that i do not possess. it is hard to put into words, but just say that the last few days have been the loneliest i have ever experienced, but i wasn't alone in the perspective of physical bodies. it is just that i seem to exist on a different plane of existence than anyone and anything else. my mind seems to be slipping away. i don't seem to fit/go/belong anywhere, just bouncing from one incongruent space to another. comparable to dreaming where i am watching the world pass by, but knowing that consciousness is coming soon. i am so far away. no one to get me or understand me, just blank stares of confusion. how lonely it is to exist in a reality all your own.

It's cold outside

oh, yesterday
i thought i
washed all of your
memories away
but that radio played
the song we kissed
the first night
was full of bliss
i saw you today
standing in the street
all your thoughts
brought back the heat
how i miss
the way you prayed
it made me feel
like this world could change

powerfully musical

i don't know what it is
my feet start bouncing,
body strikes into convulsion,
head flails about,
lips mouth the words
that i've heard so many times before.
there must be power in this noise.

romance me

i went snowboarding at boreal yesterday with some friends, and as i was standing upon the mountain, the sun was setting to slumber, and the colors that emanated across the sky were joyful. i had to stop and take in the joy for my own. it was marvelous. i love how my lord romances me.

i am the painter of songs
and the singer of silhoulettes
the breather of life
and the romancer of hearts
the healer of wounds
and the giver of dreams
i am divinity and eternity
i am beyond boxes
and beyond these words

Dr. Seuss' brilliance

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life's realities.
- Dr. Seuss

drowning

i dream exspansively
of great love
and changing
my world, this world.
but i am left with shadows
dark and cold and empty.
i am drowning in my dreams.

he wishes for the cloths of heaven

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
- William Butler Yeats

breathe

forgive my evasive eloquence
i had an idea of what i wanted to say
but they all scattered when you answered
my heart quickened
my palms sweated
my head pounded
so loud i couldn't articulate
my inadequate words
they fled, rushed out and disappeared
i wish i had a river, i could skate away on
i wish i had a cloud, i could float away on

i can't stand to watch you walk away
your faced turned makes it hard to hear the words you say
muscles on my face form a smile,
hiding the tears i cry on the inside.
i wish that you would just sit down and stay for a while.

i don't want to watch you walk away
your head turned, it's hard to notice the things you say
how did we end up this way
won't you just please stay

i finally found a job

i got a job at gap. . .who would have ever guessed that i would be working at the gap. isn't that weird. i go for orientation tomorrow.