i fear that i have limited myself. i gave people permission to enter my head and now i don't know if that was the correct thing to do. i am conflicted. i want to share with people about what is going on, but then again i don't want to censor myself. last night i was having some thoughts, which i wanted to write down, but i don't think that it would be appropriate to share with an audience that is out there. yes, some of these thoughts involve these individuals, but i am more concerned about the feedback i will receive for my openness. maybe it doesn't matter, maybe nobody really reads my word vomit anyway. well, for now these thoughts will remain in my head.