sitting, wishing, thinking

as i sit here in the basement of our kirkwood house, or should i say the project that never ends, i can't help but think about what the heck i am doing with myself? how am i spending my time? i have been out of college for over a year, but what have i done in that year? i have worked on this house for most of it, studied for and took the mcats for the second time, and worked at an ice cream factory....nothing too exciting. i thought there was more to life? is this it, because if it is, i want my money back. i didn't sign up for this mess. hmmm, yes....excuse me sir, but can i have a refund?